September 10, 2014
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A liminal space: the place of transition, waiting, and not knowing.

Truthfully, this is where I sit right now. A place of not knowing what the right direction is. Can I be so quiet as to listen to my heart, my body, and feel? The past 6-months have been a flurry of diving into work, work that I love and have chosen to dive into. And in that same time the first things to leave in my life have been the things that take time: Meditation, doing dishes that aren’t mine, writing, photography, a feeling of slowness and ease, yoga.

Asking for what you want isn’t always easy. Getting clear on what you want can be even harder. And that’s where I’m stuck; A push and pull of the heart and mind on what feels right and what I think is right. With so much focus on being present, there is also value in knowing what fruits will come from the seeds you plant. Finding the balance between here, now, and there is one I am still feeling out.

Burning Man continues to be a catalyst for life change, or rather a way of showing you the infinite potential of life. That is if you’re into that sort of thing. So coming home from another Burn I continue to step back and re-prioritize what I’m putting my time into: Home, relationships, mindfulness, selflessness, and ease. Make time for stillness. Be grateful for the good problems I’m faced with.

Photos in order: Bolinas retreat with yerdle, teardrop project, tahoe, chai cart project, burning man

Expect a miracle

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February 01, 2014
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Be patient. Be mindful. Be loving. See the best in others. Prioritize feeling good. Prioritize relationships. Make time to do nothing. And really, just one thing at a time. Eat slowly. Be thankful. Be grateful. Rest. But don’t do any of these things like they’re a checklist. Keep them as reminders, especially when the tides are rough.

 


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“One could do worse than be a swinger of birches”

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September 05, 2013
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I’ve been home for 3-months now, but I still feel like I’m traveling. This is a good sign. I’ve landed this ship with ease, and with so much thanks to the incredible amount of support I’ve received from from close friends and family. The bay is a wonderful place to call home.

At this moment I’m sitting on my bed glowing fully with gratefulness, optimism, and love. Grateful for all the opportunity that has come my way, grateful for the wonderful food that nourishes my body, grateful for all the teachers that have shown themselves in my life in their many forms, grateful for friends, community, creation. Optimistic for the potential of the future, that it will all work out, that it’s all okay, no really it is all okay. Love. So much love. A love in my heart that wants to give give give, a love that can only be expressed while staring into the eyes of another at your side, a love for a brother, for a sister, for family, for community, for music, for dance, for the endless and infinite expression of life.

My Daily Mantra:
We are so blessed. We are so loved.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.

I put my camera down for a few months, though so much has happened. Below are a few photos from my remaining time in Nepal, Indonesia, and more recently Burning Man.

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April 13, 2013
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Stillness…everywhere, always. Nowhere to go, nothing that has to be done. Always here. Perfect, brilliant, stillness. Here are the directions: take the pathless path till you find the gateless gate that swings open to reveal what was never hidden and never on the other side.

There’s a blanket of peace that I’ve been finding rest in this past month. A peace that everything is as it should be. A tangible feeling and understanding that this peace, stillness, God, whatever you want to call it, rests in all of us. Is all of us. That there is no search that needs to be carried out, that there is no teacher that needs to be found, that there is nothing that needs to be done. Its right here, this very moment. Can you dig it? “Be still, who is the ‘I’ that Is, in stillness?”

Rumi says “and when you’re looking for God, God is in the look of your eye, in the thought of your looking, and closer to your Self than yourself. No need to go outside.”

And with this feeling I’ve been taking it slow. Deepening the journey inside. Radiating love on the outside. Being grateful…grateful for my food, grateful for the teachers I meet along the way, grateful for the challenges, grateful for ease. The time I’ve spent this past month has been rich and slow. The moments come back in little snapshots; bathing in the ganges in rishikesh, attending satsangs with a beautiful soul who goes by Mooji, living in a pyramid, charras, symbolizing another year of life by shaving my head, feeling close to those who are far away, yoga, mountains, meditation, books…lots of books and chess.

I don’t have many photos to post…not that I’m uninspired, and not that I haven’t been to places I want to share. There’s a rule that I follow with photography: Either be in the moment, or capture the moment…don’t try to do both. So below are a few scattered photos from Rishikesh, Dharamsala, Mcleaod Ganj, Dharamkot (all in India), and lastly Buddhanilkantha, Nepal where I currently am for the next 6-weeks.

“Be like melting snow…wash thyself of thyself”
Rumi

 

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